Shift

October 3 – midnight: my ENTIRE world shifted. In a matter of seconds the universe snatched away the two people I loved and trusted the most. Betrayal in the most intimate way (that is LONG story for another time). I cried endlessly for days. Believing that my life was over, that all that I was working towards and wanted in my life would never be accomplished. After all without those two what was my purpose in life. For the last 5 years I had fully dedicated my life to their needs and wants, totally neglecting my own needs and wants because that’s what you do for the people you love, right?

As the days passed, I sat and thought about how I had let my life become so controlled by others. I had let others dictate almost all aspects of my life. Nothing in my life was really done to benefit me. It was during those times that I came to the realization that this “great tragedy” was in fact my way out of a life that was not for me. It was time for me to make a change. I had to shift my focus. This shift in my universe upset some of the people closest to me because now the purpose I served in their lives was no longer being met. I am losing attachments to all things that are no longer serving my Higher purpose and I couldn’t be happier. It’s time to get back to me. I have spent everyday since shifting; removing negativity, surrounding myself with those that see and accept me without my guards up, living and unapologetically living on the ledge.